January 2010
It's the night before the funeral and I'm...
Typing on my iPod at 1:30 in the morning after driving for 7 hrs
Everyone thinks this is affecting me less than it is
They’re wrong
“The Encyclopedia Galactica, in its chapter on Love states that it is far too...”
– The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (via srsly)
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Family Issues Pt. 12
It was my grandfather who died, so everyone is at my grandma’s house. Everyone = my mother, her sister, sister’s husband, their 2 adult kids and the kids’ kids, 1 each.
I asked my mom how everything’s been going and she told me that her sister and all of her family were out to dinner.
“Oh, you didn’t feel like going or you (haha) weren’t invited?”...
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So far mornings are the hardest
I wake up tired.
And low.
I feel like everything is happening too fast, like, how can I go to a funeral when he was just eating breakfast a couple days ago?
Why can’t we do this in a month when I’ve gotten used to the idea? (Because at some point, I will be used to the idea.)
And I wish I could stop being so goddamn hungry! As if I eat his weight in calories then he’ll stop...
shegoesbam asked: i will give you free cookies. when would you like them by and what kind would you like?
srsly asked: Favorite food? Aside from Tim Tams. (They are automatically on the list)
k8goesladeeda asked: I asked you this a while back, when's your real birthday, SJ? If you answered, I missed. it. :c /embarrassed
RE: That new lawyer show with Rachelle Lefevre (NEVER FORGET)????
Uh-huh, uh-huh. I'll wait for your opinion 'til you watch it... if you feel like it. ;]
RE: That new lawyer show with Rachelle Lefevre (NEVER FORGET)????
Uh-huh, uh-huh. I'll wait for your opinion 'til you watch it... if you feel like it. ;]
youcankeepthechange-deactivated asked: Speaking of stupid lamps, I always forget this, but Kristen Stewart was totally in Panic Room. If you could have one person in a panic room with you, who would it be? Celebrities excluded because I would personally love a panic room sitch with Mike Bailey from Skins but we all know that ain't happening.
k8goesladeeda asked: what else do you like about me aside from my being a suicidal cat? and have you seen the pilot of the deep end? what do you think about it? thnx! ;]
Just got word as to when the funeral is
So please ask me questions that have nothing to do with dead/death/die/dying*
*Vampires excepted
“… I wrote a few of my perspectives on the Snooze Button – that device...”
– Jason Mraz
passthemike asked: What's your favorite Meatloaf song?
nikita-banana asked: vampires or werewolves?
nikita-banana asked: what's a good book you would recommend?
Distractions* welcome →
*Ask me about anything except that
And the phone keeps ringing…
So many “I’m sorry to hear…”s and I appreciate the sentiment but for 30 seconds I had managed to forget and now that’s gone.
But then, at the same time, I want more. More phone calls, more emails. I want deference from strangers. I want free cookies.
How can the world just go on turning as if nothing happened when he’s not...
“You never come back, not all the way. Always there is an odd distance between...”
– Marya Hornbacher (via bangbangdinosex) (via missworld) (via xx2) (via baringmysoul)
The morning after the morning after
“The only thing I know is everything you love will die. The first time you meet that someone special, you can count on them one day being dead and in the ground.” —Chuck Palahniuk
Physically At first I couldn’t seem to get warm My eyes are exhausted but I’m sleep-avoidant I keep having to pee Hungry
Emotionally Devastated Relieved Thankful Understanding Detached Calm Hysterical...
"Did I dream it?"
My eyes are exhausted from crying but I don’t want to go to sleep…
because I don’t want to have to wake up tomorrow and remind myself that this is real:
He really is dead
When the clock struck midnight New Year's Eve, I...
And 23 days later, here we are
I just watched Conan's final Tonight Show
theidiotking:
His speech brought me to tears. Were there any other pansy ass, idealistic, comedy obsessed writers with a burning desire to have long fruitful careers in the entertainment industry who were as affected as I was? Probably. I regret taking his show for granted. To my credit, I have a short attention span for all late night talk shows, mostly because of the monologues and the guests...
““to evolve you have to dismantle, and that means accepting the idea that nothing...”
– John Mayer (via shellykrys)
I haven't seen or talked to you in months.
srsly:
I just want you to say you miss me and even more so, I want you to mean it.
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“Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you...”
– Conan O’Brien (via 52hearts)
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More help for Haiti: food trucks at TLofts;... →
If you’re in L.A. you should check this out tomorrow
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I just did a Tim Tam Slam
Your argument is invalid
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I love this show
Shirley: Can I just ask as a divorced Black housewife what part of being a single White slacker makes you people so jaded?
Britta: "You people"? What do you mean "you people"?
Britta: Cannot believe I got to say that!
Shirley: It's the little things, isn't it? :)
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Okay, I have no idea what to blame this on
I dreamt that mcdavis and I were sleeping in the same bed when he started feeling me up, which led to the following exchange:
“What are you doing?” “Your body is a wonderland.” “Oh. Okay.”
Meanwhile I was texting markyb to try and convince him to come out and go to some 6-month film school on Melrose.
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Moving gives me stress dreams Pt. 2
Dreamt that I was at university in FL and in order to move to Vancouver, I had to live in Boston for 2 months—you know how that is—during which time I would be missing my graduation, and I was all packed up ready to go, me and my roommate, when I realised that I didn’t have a place to stay. Finding a place to live had somehow been a detail that I’d overlooked, so we asked...
coveryourload asked: have you seen this?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZdVHZwI8pcA
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZdVHZwI8pcA
You get 4 words
Jack: I'll wait. Not forever.
Nancy: I'll try...wicked hard.
