In the face of the beautiful-awful-tragic-absurd-mundane-heartbreaking-impossible-wonderful,
all I can think to say is:
and even this...
“I record my life, sifting and trying to separate what is real from what I’ve dreamed. I have decided not to tell you what is fact versus what is unfact primarily because (a) I am giving you a portrait of the essence of me, and (b) because, living where I do, living in the chasm that cuts through thought, it is lonely… come with me, reader. I am toying with you, yes, but for a real reason. I am asking you to enter the confusion with me, to give up the ground with me, because sometimes that frightening floaty place is really the truest of all. Kierkegaard says, 'The greatest lie of all is the feeling of firmness beneath our feet. We are most honest when we are lost.' Enter that lostness with me. Live in the place I am, where the view is murky, where the connecting bridges and orienting maps have been surgically stripped away.”
— Lauren Slater
“I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn’t brighten her own.”
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51. stop thinking that someday you are going to “figure it all out.” you won’t. maybe youll get the job part figured out, but not the relationship. maybe the relationship but not the job.
52. this is what life is, and it is living you. so just roll with it. do your best. try to be a good person. keep moving forward.
53. one last thing. you know that relationship you are in? be honest. do you really see a future? can you/do you want to be with this person over the long haul or are you just hanging in there because you don’t want to be alone? think about it. you know what to do.
i appreciate this.