Or just SJ.
Broken brain. Fractured heart. Killer smile. Wicked sense of humor.
In the face of the beautiful-awful-tragic-absurd-mundane-heartbreaking-impossible-wonderful,
all I can think to say is:
and even this...
“I record my life, sifting and trying to separate what is real from what I’ve dreamed. I have decided not to tell you what is fact versus what is unfact primarily because (a) I am giving you a portrait of the essence of me, and (b) because, living where I do, living in the chasm that cuts through thought, it is lonely… come with me, reader. I am toying with you, yes, but for a real reason. I am asking you to enter the confusion with me, to give up the ground with me, because sometimes that frightening floaty place is really the truest of all. Kierkegaard says, 'The greatest lie of all is the feeling of firmness beneath our feet. We are most honest when we are lost.' Enter that lostness with me. Live in the place I am, where the view is murky, where the connecting bridges and orienting maps have been surgically stripped away.”
— Lauren Slater
“I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn’t brighten her own.”
AIM: andeventhis
Email: andeventhis[at]aim[dot]com
My mother has treated me, the majority of my life, as though I were a burden. My existence an inconvenience to be endured.
I can’t prove it, but I’m relatively sure that if she hadn’t already aborted her first pregnancy that she wouldn’t have had me. I think she thought my dad was the one who was supposed to want me, but then he left.
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srsly said:
:( ALL OF THE HUGS. TURN UP THE HUGS IN HERE BABY, EXTRA CUDDLES I WANT YALL TO FEEL THIS. TURN UP THE HUGS IN HERE BABY, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN WANT YOU TO FEEL EVERYTHING, ALL OF THE HUGS.
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