In the face of the beautiful-awful-tragic-absurd-mundane-heartbreaking-impossible-wonderful,
all I can think to say is:
and even this...
“I record my life, sifting and trying to separate what is real from what I’ve dreamed. I have decided not to tell you what is fact versus what is unfact primarily because (a) I am giving you a portrait of the essence of me, and (b) because, living where I do, living in the chasm that cuts through thought, it is lonely… come with me, reader. I am toying with you, yes, but for a real reason. I am asking you to enter the confusion with me, to give up the ground with me, because sometimes that frightening floaty place is really the truest of all. Kierkegaard says, 'The greatest lie of all is the feeling of firmness beneath our feet. We are most honest when we are lost.' Enter that lostness with me. Live in the place I am, where the view is murky, where the connecting bridges and orienting maps have been surgically stripped away.”
— Lauren Slater
“I want to be remembered as the girl who always smiles even when her heart is broken, and the one that could always brighten up your day even if she couldn’t brighten her own.”
AIM: andeventhis
Email: andeventhis[at]aim[dot]com
I’ve taken to randomly telling myself that I’m “dope as fuck” for doing the most minor shit. “I just brushed my teeth because I’m dope as fuck. I have on pink pajamas with bunnies on them because I’m dope as fuck.” Do it and then try not to feel like a Bawse for the remainder of the day. Also, it’s important that you say “as fuck” and not “as eff”. If you can’t say fuck for whatever reason, then this bit of motivation ain’t for you. You non cursors can say, “Because I’m awesome.” (Dope as fuck is better though and I’m sure Jesus won’t mind.).
I’m sending this email even though my heart is reenacting Drumline BECAUSE I AM DOPE AS FUCK.
my heart is reenacting Drumline BECAUSE I AM DOPE AS FUCK.